I have been very anxious lately. 

Like, very anxious. Nothing like ever before.

Well, i think it's rather normal considering facts that:

1. I will leave for Manchester in 2 months to pursue master degree in Manchester Business School for 1 year. 1 year without Ayah and Bunda, without ulbuls, labils, geng EB, geng cootex, and all the friendly faces and comforting voices. And the fact that i will live alone for the first time, thousand miles away from people i love just makes me even more anxious.

2. R is leaving tonight to work in Singapore. He will come home to Indo in 1 year the soonest. I'll be in UK anyway so i am prepared for the fact that we're not gonna meet for the next 1 year, but the fact that he is leaving so sudden breaks my heart. We didn't even have proper good bye. gak sopan.

3. Abang None DKI final and its preparation are right in front of my eyes. its not that i want it so badly, but its just people put high expectation on us. And letting people who trust me down is one of the things i hate the most.

Well, life goes on. What is destined to be mine, will eventually be mine. So many things can happen in a year. Like, so many things. People change, heart move on, and life works in mysterious ways.

Just wish me luck, and i hope God will always protect and guide us, no matter what.

Love,

poppiesandlily